Becoming an adult.

I’ve been wanting to become an adult ever since i was a kid. I thought that being an adult is such a luxurious thing that a person can have. But as time pass by, I’ve started to have fears and doubts if adulthood is really something that a person can dream of.

It was okay, for me.

No exciting and outrageous experiences. No extraordinary moments, so far. Well, I’m just 21. I haven’t even traveled alone, I haven’t brought my parents to an out of town trip and I haven’t even dated anyone yet.

I think i’m in the process where millennials like me call it ‘adulting’. I’m in the process where we are exploring our passions, voicing out our thoughts, saying what we want and just trying to find our identities. Sometimes millennials are often considered as kids that think that they are entitled, brats or even kids with no dreams for themselves but the context that they put into us makes us feel entitled, entitled to be heard, to be respected as a human being and to be treated as equal as everyone else.

They stereotype millennials as reckless, but I guess recklessness combined with self-acceptance and respect can make a difference. People nowadays doesn’t want to be normal. They want to be unique and one of a kind. I guess, not everyone is open to that kind of concept but I guess all we can do is to guide people who are younger than us and respect people who are older than us. Every opinion matters. We experience different things in life. You may have experienced something that I haven’t so that itself makes you unique.

There is nothing wrong in asking for help or seeking for answers for your curiosity. I think we need to make decisions where you can justify your actions. We need to think carefully because every action is like a continuation of a new level in your life. We might destroy or strengthen our aspirations in life.

Don’t think that we are entitled to be accepted by everyone. Keep in mind, you cannot please everyone but as long as you know you are making something that is good for yourself without harming anyone. You can do it. Just believe in yourself.

Well, I guess that’s all for today. Till my next thoughts.

To be continued…


Personal 1

Every now and then, I get this feeling of loneliness. I just can’t escape from this cycle. I had a lot in mind, plans for the future, my dreams and aspirations as an artist. They said that young people tendΒ  to forget the limitations and all we think about is the possibility but it’s definitely wrong (in my opinion only). I tend too see my age as a limitation, it’s like i’m a bubble, not inside a bubble but actually a bubble. I can go anywhere, be whatever shape but the time will come that I will just suddenly pop and be forgotten. I know, you might think that I’m being serious about that idea and that I should get over it but I just can’t. I just can’t, for now maybe?

I’ve been reflecting on my self and I realized that as I grew older I’m becoming more aware of the future and just the thought of the future scares me. The ‘unknown future’ it’s like not knowing when to stop or start something. I feel like i’m lost and nowhere to be found.

I’ve been like this since I graduated college, so i’m guessing that I need a lot of time to fully adjust myself to the new environment.

As I remember, there’s also an issue with myself. I am doubting myself too much. I know that I should think about myself and everything but it just doesn’t seem right. I always think that in everything I do, I will definitely fail or i can’t do that. It’s so frustrating and at the same time a worry for me. Hopefully, I can get through this with God’s help.Β πŸ™